Jenny offers her life experience re organizing life’s priorities as well hoarding here….
Well, the first thing–I write as I sit here, with five things that ought to be done in the next hour and energy for none of them–is to let go of standards. There is no more “What ought I to do?” Instead there’s “What can I do, with the resources I have?”
This is harder to do than it is to say. We ought to be able to make lists and follow them, dammit. We ought to be able to plan a week ahead. Or a day ahead. Or this afternoon. But sometimes that is just plain not possible. Sitting around beating ourselves up because we ought to have a handle on this just wastes more energy. The handle broke off, it’s gone.
The standards that count, now, are:
*Am I fulfilling the obligations that I CANNOT put down? Paying property tax, showing up at work looking decent, etc.?
*Am I taking care of myself as best I can, so I don’t slip any further? (This means IMMEDIATE needs. If you have X amount of worry-about-yourself energy, and you can spend it on teeth brushing OR on reading about antioxidants…brush your teeth.) (Housecleaning corollary: Your priorities are preventing environmental hazards and removing obstacles from furniture and floor space; let the rest of it go.)
*Am I allowing myself to accept help that I think I don’t deserve because it’s for people who are “really” badly off? One example: If you don’t need a shower chair, but you sure would like to sit down comfortably in the shower…get the shower chair. Another: If the church youth group is offering free lawn care for seniors and mowing the lawn is onerous although you can do it…take the help. Use the energy you save by sitting in the shower/having your lawn mowed to do other tasks.
I feel a bit better just now, so I’m going to do another load of laundry. More another time.