Do you see why I am retreating from anything definite? Two days ago, I watched my Auntie’s chest seriously barely rise and fall…I was ‘certain’ she was ‘again’ near death. How is this possible? I have heard it enough to know the process can draw out. It has been just one month since she broke her hip and this hospice journey has tested everyone’s resolve. I am putting my mind in neutral and as I have said take it as it comes.
So today, my dear sweet Auntie awakens out of her deep slumber. What does she do? She wants to know who the man is in the room (there is no one in her room save my wife) and she wants to hold her angel!
This is why I have to create mental space from all this up and down, hour to hour, day to day theater. One moment everyone agrees, ‘well it won’t be long’ and the next day, literally, she is hugging her angel and staring at the man in the room. Lordy Me!